ohh, ok

93769 - 

yeah, that makes sense

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i ended up kicking him and getting physical too

93769 - 

Oh-

94366 - 

yeah it sounds like youre dealing with a lot of negative emotions

94366 - 

of course he had to rub salt in the wound and said any time i got mad i resort to physical violence

93769 - 

honestly my only thought to that is that im just like my mom and dad

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they were physically violent when i was a kid all the time. i guess it really does rub off

93769 - 

i destroy all my relationships

89725 - 

I had a feeling

94366 - 

obviously i dont want to be like them. who the fuck wants to be like that

93769 - 

Youre not alone in that expereince, this happens to a lot of other people too unfortunately

94366 - 

so then i called him a fucking retard and had a panic attack like an idiot

93769 - 

who the fuck calls their friend a slur and then starts twitching tf out

93769 - 

im such a dumbass

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in my defense my last 6 weeks have been hell

93769 - 

i cant deal with my erratic mood

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Yeah

94366 - 

therapist thinks its bipolar disorder and at this point i wouldnt even disagree with him

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but im 15 so diagnosis is hard as fuck

93769 - 

they thought it was autism at first but no im just fucked emotionally

93769 - 

so they only just diagnosed you?

94366 - 

if its this intense you’ll probably get one easier than other people under 18

89725 - 

so yeah, ive been suffering with this for the past several weeks. i only reached out for professional help yesterday regarding suicidal idealisation from school

93769 - 

i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 16

89725 - 

thats fair but i feel like my diagnosis is taking way too long, ive been in therapy since 5th grade and these symptoms have been here since 4th grade

93769 - 

only until the last two years i suspected that something was truly wrong with me internally

93769 - 

ive always known that something was weong with me, even as a young child but i guess i never knew the name for it

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hi

86800 - 

have they even started prescriibing you medicine yet?

94366 - 

and this is only the past couple of weeks too. my entire life has been hell

93769 - 

hello

86800 - 

wow i m coral today

86800 - 

they cant prescribe medication until the diagnosis is offical

89725 - 

i got discharged from the ED several hours ago, they gave me temporary fluoxetine

93769 - 

Ah

94366 - 

Well it sounds like youre only just beginning to get help addressing the problem

94366 - 

i guess, i just wish it wasnt at such an unfortunate time

93769 - 

This could be the start of something new for you

94366 - 

and they try to avoid medication for young people anyway. unless its like really bad

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