i need to die

93769 - 

they let me go because i lied and said i wanted to go home 😝😝😝😝😝

93769 - 

bf came over for a little after but its a bandaid solution now that hes gone i dont see a point in continuing

93769 - 

i cant eat anything because i have this unshakeable feeling that someone’s poisoned everything i’m going to eat

89725 - 

honestly i have no idea how they let me go lol theyre careless asf i could go back and hang on hospital grounds and they would gaf until 3 hours later

93769 - 

waited all that fucking time for what, i couldnt even get admitted to the wadd

93769 - 

guess im not enough of a victim for them. or im not mentally ill enough

93769 - 

is that what they want to see from me? should i have to be 3 steps away from deaths door?

93769 - 

train station is 5 minutes away from my apartment i desperately need a way to die

93769 - 

Whatre your reasons green?

94366 - 

they gave me meds and said go home and fuck it

93769 - 

reasons for what?

93769 - 

why do you want to die

94366 - 

i feel like i need to kill myself before anyone else can

89725 - 

if i were to answer that question, ive been wanting to die since i was 5. im 15 now. theres so much happening, i cant even describe

93769 - 

ngopi-ngopi duluan pak anwar ibrahim rahmatan lil al hensemi ya

94374 - 

Thats really young

94366 - 

I just wish i could disappear and start afresh somewhere else. I'm hating my graduate degree

94375 - 

school work, arguments with friends, impulsive spending and stupid decisions, mood swings and constant suicidal idealisation. im really sick of dealing with this. on the grand scheme of things, it

93769 - 

doesnt seem like a lot but when it builds up over the span of 10 years it gets fucking tiring

93769 - 

im only hanging on for my boyfriend but that will to live isnt any much stronger

93769 - 

thermal night scope

94374 - 

THERMAL NIGHT SCOPE

94374 - 

LONG RANGE

94374 - 

I see

94366 - 

i called my friend a retard today on accident and now i feel lile i shouldnt have to live ever again

93769 - 

a person like me isnt worthy of respect or love, i do stupid shit and say stupid shit all the time its probably why i cant keep friends

93769 - 

well, it wasnt on accident lol my day was shit but thats not a reason to take it out on him

93769 - 

Thats true

94366 - 

not even days, my weeks have been complete fucking shit

93769 - 

thats called displaced anger

94366 - 

but yknow, mental health is the reason and not an excuse

93769 - 

oh really? ive never heard of that term

93769 - 

HI

94376 - 

then i mustve been dealing with it this entire time during mood swings

93769 - 

ANYONE THERE

94376 - 

DELTARUNE YESTERDAY

94376 - 

i want to just give up

89725 - 

Yeah its when you lash out as somebody who has nothing to do with the reason youre angry

94366 - 

i destroy things and belongings that hold meaning to me and regret it after

93769 -