But if I change my surname, I'd lose my auspicious destiny

I was never meant to be part of this family

Constantly being compared, never being supported

I wish I was never born if I'm stuck with this family

Easier said than done.

My best bet is to avoid contact with this family, head straight to my bedroom everyday, and never speak again in this household.

But if I don't snap now, when? I don't own my own bank account yet. My mother withdrew my education fund to invest in gold without informing me. Things are too unstable for me.

It's not smart to snap now

I still have to remain in this house for years

My father already coddles me, likely as a result of his guilt for my attempted murder, and snapping will pitentially offset it to the point where he becomes estranged from the family

There's a lot at stake.

If I snap, years of untold secrets will come crashing out. My father's attempted murder of me, the result of buried conflicts of my mother emotionally cheating on my father.

I'm so sick of this fam

I should just snap at my family and get them to piss off, leave me alone, and I'll be on my merry way as the second black sheep of the family

I don't know how to live for myself

All I can do is endure until I turn legal

I don't know if I really want to

But I don't know who will take care of me

I'm in the same boat, it's just that my case is much older

I know CPS will get them, because there was a case of parents who got arrested for the attempted murder of their baby

I want to call CPS on my parents

She'll act all cautious around me for the first week, then it's back to making the same mistakes

She never wins, so she forgets the arguments take place

We're going to get into another argument soon

All because of miscalculations on my mother's end

Yk what my name said about my destiny? "Results don't match efforts,"

I don't even know if I'll make it to the next stage of schooling

I haven't cried sm since I was stuck in depression

This is the third time I've cried this week

I don't wanna stay in this family anymore

I don't wanna do this anymore

Why do I have to suffer

I'm just so tired of this

My mother always goes on and on about how it's my fortune that I was born into this family but I think it was my misfortune

But not my parents

But it's starting to take a toll on me because depression was my trauma and I'm essentially reliving it

My tchers decided that because I noticed my friend had depression, I should help her since she hasn't approached them

I'm just so sick of everything in life

I could call CPS on them

I'm so sick of my parents