unwanted thoughts at its most basic meaning - sophie

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i shouldnt idolise what i idolise

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I'm too dumb to understand a thing with sophie just said

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i hate it but at the same time i keep thinking about it

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I'm a bob

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aka the opposite lf what u actually want

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idk if its just a special interest or if its stupid

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yh

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i mean intrusive thoughts are thoughts you cant control - sophie

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if i say it i will get judged

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i want to go the a fking doctor and get a fcking diagnosis of fcking something so i fcking know what the fck is wrong with me -mind

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nooo say it

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we wont judge

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I dont think u will

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every time ive tried to tell someone when they say they wont judge they always judge me

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when you’re the topper of the school you’ll always still feel like you’re failing others and yourself - sophie

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thats my experience - sophie

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because it is genuinely horrible

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mind, what is happening? what diagnosis?

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i have alot of intrusive thouts yhat make me feel absolutely horrible and terrified

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coral we are all mentally unstable strangers we wont judge why would we judge -mind

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i wont judge

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i get back home from school at 12:15 and only study at around 1:30 which to me is alot - sophie

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i spend all my time researching this topic, idolising the two guys that were involved, etc

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huh?! Well, same here but I'm the dumb in the class....wel of my friends

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i dont know whats wrong with me

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nobody will judge don't woryyy

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nothing is wrong with you coral -mind

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and i feel so scared that im actually going to do what the two guys did

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involved in what coral

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what did they do

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coral, is it tcc? if you dont mind telling of course everyone has boundaries - sophie

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im in another country so hopefully it would be a lot harder

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what is tcc??

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true cr1m3 community - sophie

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woah

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u dont sound like someone that would commit murder

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as someone who had the most rephrensible types of intrusive thoughts, the way I got better with dealing with them is to just go with the uncertainty they bring. I would just say, maybe, instead of no

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its an actual crime case yes

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tha fcat that ur researching about it

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