And I learned, gradually, to live with these thoughts

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i dont believe interest will always lead to idolisation - sophie

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for some reason i idolise these guys and i dont even know why

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i idolise what they did

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and i hate myself for it

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But rn i cant live with them

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i feel i like exactly what you’re talking about coral, and down to the case but i teally dont wanna say out of respect - sophie

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yeh bcuz I'm interested in serial killers but nah never do what they did

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I learned to notice that yeah, I'm uncertain if I'm x,y or z, but my actions will tell

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you can say it

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I feel like I get it all wrong sayig what I'm saying lmao

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intrusive thoughts don't form who you are. The idea that you are terrified of your own intrusive thoughts shows that you will never act upon them, which is a good sign. keep it up.

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if yous ay it and its right tbh it would be easier for me to say it

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say*

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i cant stop thinking about all the stupid things ive ever done

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c0lumb1ne - sophie

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ots all like on repeat

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band on sophie

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it is columbine

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omg same yellow

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i dont even know why

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It makes me feel so fucking scared

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try focusing on others

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bang* not band on

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im tired

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bang on**

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observe

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I could be a monster with terrible thoughts, I'm open to that possibiity with OCD. Eventually I learnt to accept that uncertainty

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just generally give your brain something else to do

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And it freed me

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like what if i actually am like as annoying as i think what if pol actually hate me yk

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i ask this every time im here buttttt -mind

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coral i feel like theres alot of things that are different about the c0lumb case - sophie

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not a vent but i started listening to billie's newest album and i can't relate more

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ANY MITSKI LISTENERS HERE? -mind

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which is of course something that the human mind simply cannot control - sophie

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The only way forward with intrusive thoughts, is to accept the uncertainty

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the regular mind cannot control its interest - sophie

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OMFG I LOVE HMHAS

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opp i love mitski!!

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