And again I can’t feel what they call positive emotions

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ill force myself to eat more so my metabolism doesnt get fucked

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itll be fucked up anyway

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green, please don't overexert yourself

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if you can't feel positive emotions, then depression might be in that head somewhere

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it has been fucked up from last time

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Cyan you don’t know how much work I have done how much money I spend how much therapies and medicine etc

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Oh darn i hareky ate today chat

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*barely

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you're right, I don't know

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ive just lost my appetite again

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Years of work.

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its gotten easier for some reason

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I suffered like this since I remember 4 or 5 years old

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and i only wanna get down to 47kg not any lower

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purple,yeah its not wrong to feel contradicting emotions to someone

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There's new therapies coming out and old therapies

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like last time

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maybe lower if i get to it

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ECT?

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idk

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I mean im just confused man

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Electroconvulsive therapy? Tried it?

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Ect i mean and other stuff

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green, isn't that too low? idk your age, but,

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i work out like once a week and i still lose

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do i want to feel bad for myself because hallucinations are the only objective form of mental issue i can claim is beyond my control?

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Yeah it is, red

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its only a kg lower than what i should be

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It is a abreviation

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Probably

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I'm 45 kg at 17.

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For extreme resistance, they're using ketamine now and it has really good results

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I'm underweight according to bmi.

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im minimum supposed to be 48, 47 isnt bad

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when i was like that last time i really liked it too

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So i just ask my doctor for ketamin?

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normal people are underweight all of the time anyway

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purple, i do think its valid to think that way, definitely not shameful

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just because i do it on purpose doesnt really make it bad

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