One "friend" said she wouldn't mourn me if I died

People have treated me with the utmost contempt once I became poor

If you want to see a lack of human kindness, lose your money and your job

:)

He gets to know the full depravity of my mind

That would be hilarious

LMaoooooo

He's an IT guy, so maybe he's watching me type this from home

I'm not even using my own computer; I'm using my pastor's computer

GOD JUST KILL ME

FUCK ME

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Last time I lost my car, I lost my job and it was what plunged me into homelessness

SO close

I was almost not homeless too

I'm so fucked

I have $300 and a 600 credit score

THe mechanic won't even touch it

$7,700 in damage

Got my car looked at because it was smoking while I was driving yesterday

My new job feeds me twice* a day. So I've been spending WAAAY less on food

Being hopeless is so much easier, maybe I could commit to killing myself

I wish I didn't have hope, it's so painful

I just don't have an address

I also have a full time job

I'm not like, sidewalk/woods homeless

I also have a car (although, it's about to die)

I sleep in my church; I have SSS tier homelessness

Not at all, I'm alive because suicide is too risky

Fuck this

And even if I did it, I'd probably survive with half of a face, making my life worse

I'm too much of a loser to even attempt to kill myself

FUCK

I have like $300 bucks, but I'm too much of a fuckup to even SAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY A GUN TO KILLMYSELF WITH

I legitmately need to die

Fuck me

I'm legitimately a joke

(Low impulse control)

(I am fat as hell, obese, morbidly obese even)

-_-