And.. i shouldnt attatch myself to them

They say online friends are fake

And my parents took away any means of being able to co tact my online friends on discodd so i use google chat with them throu g email. Idk. -El

And no im.not oneif those kids that bs abt their problems for attention. Ive delt with enough of those ppl but it still hurtsm -El

Bht no one is here for me.irl.

I need a hug. -El

I dont know how to how to... cope. -El

Star... i... dont know how to reapond. I feel.horrible for you but. I dont know how to move on. -El

Thr first season just hit so muc different

Near wasnt my favprite. I understood he was supposed to be his successor but idk

But

Yeah i understood it. I loved the ending.

I need help

I guess i loved L too much to see him get replaced

I need help.

Im losinf my grip on everyrhing i.. dont know. What to do. -El

L you fulfilled your role insanely well. I wasnt a fan of Near

I regret it but

Season 1 should have ended. S2 shouldnt have happened

Its hard to care for myself when my heart feels so empty and it hurts. I cant... stop. -El

L what did u thinj abt near in s2 -El

Im trying so hard to help. Oke of them is turnjf out good but thr other is so hard. -El

And the thing is... 2 of my friends rn are suicidal. Im... so exhausted. -El

El

Its hard. I cling tight enough to my friends and this feels like idk. This hjets. -wl

I just... lost contact for a bit -El

I could have been there for him. -el

I havent been sleepjng ive been blaming myself. -el

I... i dont know how to move on or idk...he... i... i could have done somethjng idk. -El

Im... sorry for your loss. -El

But... its just idk my bsf killed himself.so im... e.pty -el

Im a guy -el

I dont know how to cope. I feel so alone. -el

My best friend killed himself. Im so empty. -El