Idk o-o

Least i can do to make some differece maybe

And to lsiten

To vent

I guess ghey left

Still there nix?

Why did homeschooling mess things up for you?

Oh

It sucks that we only have one life doesnt it? One try to get things right

Hello

Im still here for now

Im sorry to myself but this is the only way to stop my pain

And im sorry that i wont ask for real help because i dont want them to stop me

Im sorry mom im sorry dad

I just had to sya it

I feel bad if im wasting anyones time bc nothing is gonna to work but

And im saying all this to feel better in the short term but in the long term i have no hope

I feel so bad bc i feel like im really gonna do it and im gonna hurt my parents

The fact that it used to be different makes it worse bc i couldve had such a different path a different life

I um i just dont know how to exist anymore

Yeah

Nothiokay thank you again goodbye boue

I try to face it hesd on sometimes but that doesnt help either

So basically i try to ignore what im feeling and just do other things but its always there underneath

<3

Seems like mostly when i do talk im just ignored usually so

Thank you im reallygrateful for you all talking to me

Cuz i spend so much time trying ot keep it inside and its just burdting out me

Yeah i do want to talk about it

Cuz every day is just tortue

I dont think i can sufvive

Im hurtin real bad