U too cyan

Thanks gor everyone who talked to me i rly appreciate it

Oh

I'm sorry

Yeah not for a few months i havent

Congrats

Huh

Yes i have done sh in the past.

God this site is confusing sometimes

Are u one of the trolls

Why

But i wasnt taking it out on anyone tho

Cuz she was also stuck in the same circumstances as me

I feel like i should've forgiven her when she was alive

Then she passed away and i feel so guilty even tho i didn't do anything wrong

And then she got really sick and i did talk to her a bit but i dont think she remembers

Saying horrible things

Not knowing tjat my father doesn't give af

Her logic was that my father burts her daughter so she'll hurt his daughter

Just to get revenge on my father

When my grandmother got better she said horrible untrue stuff about me

If i did go to her my mother would end up yelling ay me

I wasnt allowed to meet my mother or anything

I took care of my grandmother for 2 years when i was 14-15

The gaslighting is so good sometimes i really get convinced

Idk how to say exactly

Not traps exactly

And afterwards i feel stupid i fell into their traps or whatever

I dont understand half of the things they do or did

Blue i guess so

But i never had a choice

My father said that I'd regret it if i chose my mother

My mother abuses me also but in different ways than my father. For a while i thought she wS better but no

I feel like i deserved atleast one okay parent

I feel trapped from all sides

And my mother suffocates me so much,

He wont change into a good person ever

Because if i do talk to him i know he'll be terrible again

He called my mother a couple of months ago and she said if i want to talk to him i can but i didn

Its been a little more than a year since he left