I guess I'll end it here. Screaming into the void only does so much.

I both hate myself and want to die, and feel I deserve better and want to rage

If only I could project my pain onto others, so they knew how I felt, would they feel sympathy then?

Or do I leave them to dwell on where it went wrong forever?

If I was to die, should I even bother trying to tell them what they did wrong?

And I want them to feel pain for it

People have WRONGED me

But I really don't know how else to cope at times

I get bothered by my revenge fantasies

I'd make a certain orange fall from terminal velocity height