I cant take not

I understand if youll feel disgusted when you finally see for yourself

I am so sorry for lying to you about how damaged i am

Im genuinely alone now and all i want to do is disappear zion

I dont even have my mother anymore, or the only sibling thags ever cared for me

please help me i dont know how to keep on living zion

I need help zion i need you

im trying not to stain my sheets but the blood keeps soaking through the bandages

my thighs sting so badly

I spend every day lying in bed crying or staring at the ceiling bleeding

im so sorry zion ive been lying to you all this time

you already stare at my healed scars im so terrified of you finding the new ones

Im so scared of the next time i see you cos youre gonna end up seeing what i did to my body

everything hurts so much and im falling back into my addiction

I dont know how to tell you how bad im doing zion

i know youve been busy all day but i really needed you

i wish you were here zion