I'm going to tell them everything next time I see them, I decided it, I journaled it all out, Im ready. Just need them to be ready to recieve it. I hope I dont hurt them with how confused I am

Lesson learned, when you're feeling overwhelming emotions, journal it all out to make sense of the mess. It feels a whole lot better

maybe I just journal it all out and try to pick out what makes sense

I was starting to think love wasn't real, then I met them and my whole worldview was challenged

they're the first person I've felt this way for in so many years

The stress of them leaving me is really messing me up

I know they're going to leave me anyway so I might as well spill everything

okay.. maybe I can just tell them how confused I am

I dont know how to tell them how I feel because I don't even know how I feel

I hope they can find someone that's not such a mess

I hope I can find myself some day

I'm so lost

.

aaaaa

I thought I understood myself once

I really cant understand myself

why do you say that

is that what you think love is? lies?

love is something terrifying and yet so beautiful that you cant keep coming back

honest to themselves

which I know is what they'll say, if they're being honest to me

I just hope they're not too harsh when they tell me it can't work

patience, patience

I cant wait to talk to them and get everything off my chest