Repetition of misery

I cant keep doing this everyday

Im so scared

Like somehow i just fall apart

I need to scrape until something gives

I could scrape until i reach bone

I feel like i give off this vive like maybe i smell so bad that people keep their distance even though i scrape myself raw so that i can get rid of the filth

So much anguish

How much can one tske

Till my lungs dissolve

And scream

I want to yell and cry

Im so stuck

I need to do something

Exhausted

Im so tired

I feel like scraping my skin off

Im wasting time

Its causing a headache

Cant put this feeling into words

Can i even do anything

What should i do

Cant move

Stuck jn place

Stuck

It feels like im becoming a statue

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Im so anxious