Repetition of misery

I cant keep doing this everyday

Im so scared

Like somehow i just fall apart

I need to scrape until something gives

I could scrape until i reach bone

I feel like i give off this vive like maybe i smell so bad that people keep their distance even though i scrape myself raw so that i can get rid of the filth

So much anguish

How much can one tske

Till my lungs dissolve