i want help

i have to i think

im gonna tell my therapist

took me back to bed and everything was normal

washed my hair and watched me while letting the conditioner sit

lol one time i woke up while he was doing it and i threw up and he showered me

yeah

i just think that kind of stuff wont make sense to anyone but me

because i had to keep schedule

like lol this is weird but he used to force me to be naked all day on the weekend if i didnt go to bed on time the night before