i hate it i hate myself

i hate that i dont know who i am

i hate that i cant talk about it

i hate that it hurts

i hate that im going through with my plan anyways

i hate that i miss her

i hate her

noah?

i saved her life once

she could have taken me with her

so it would hurt me?

why couldnt she have taken me too why did she even stay

the entire time

she had a whole other family

she could have taken me too

yeah

i dont know what i did wrong

just why did she have to leave me

why did she have to leave me with HIM

am i really that bad of a son?

why did she have to ditch me

i really dont -water

it doesnt feel like i do

huh

oh

?

noah

hey sam - water

im 15

noah?

noah im really scared

idk

idk

huh

dont make promises you cant keep

yeah

fei did that

i dont know

i wouldnt be surprised it you and wart are pretending

hailey doesnt give a fuck