and my grandpa David has dementia

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she wont do that

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Physiacl abuse is not the only type of torture in a famliy full of psychopaths

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but we happy

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i just wann drink till i die

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i dont think i know what it feels like to depend on someone

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They are the type of people to drive me to death and then weep at my grave saying waht did we do wrong

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even thought most of the family drinks and the youngest of the fam is really depressed

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i dont think ive ever been able to rely on someone wholly without fear or without doing what i needed to do myself

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i tried to od on tylenol once dont try it

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she left so did my bio dad my siblings are all grown up

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i just want someone to take care of me

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i have no one

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I swear If I don't get out of this house I'll kill myself or them

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but what's the point in taking care of me??

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also my parents dont believe in depression unless youve been thru a war or smth

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they definitely wont let me get antidepressants

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so. thats fun

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i have my step dad and im so greatful i love him so much but im scared hell leave me too hes so old

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i dont want him to leave

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I tried to OD on sleeping pills, didn't use enough, just enough to poison me and leave me in bed feeling so so horrible but just barely not to death

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and i went to my mom and said im not doing ok and it was this huge fight

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I wish I was financially independent already

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im getting better really fast tho

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and she wants me to meditate and do yoga to fix myself

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for once i feel ok around someone i feel comfortable

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mentally

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my bones aren't

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im too afraid of death to ever kill myself

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I think the only way I'm getting better is leaving this house

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if he dies ill truly be alone

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because they weren't affected by me going through puberty for whatever reason and now I need treatment

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and she got me this oil to fade scars quicker and its working but i dont want it to work i want to see them

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HIII

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sometimes i want to say that ill do it just to get attention but i dont even bother with that because nobody would care even if they knew i was gonna die yknow

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Is sol here

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I got that same oiL!!!

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I hate my scars

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so I love it

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i care

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