i didnt think she even thought about me. my dad told me she didnt love me

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4 years.

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Woah 4 years is smth

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He lied right

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yeah hah feels like longer

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my dad? yeah.

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What makes him do that

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he used to tell me all the time that my brother or older sisters or mom didnt want me

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That's so mean

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My mother just called me a Prude for not wanting to wear something cause it made me uncomfortable as i felt like it was too revealing

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i think its because out of all 5 kids he had, hes never gotten to known them. he left my half brother when he was a kid. he was deployed my whole childhood. he doesnt want to get to know me

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so he marries woman who will raise us. they're abusive, every. time.

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Still not an excuse for him i believe

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definitely not.

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That must be tough

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So are u gonna contact you mom?

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im just stressed i guess. i havent spoken to my siblings in oklahoma in years.

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i want to feel safe

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I guess, more like my older siblings will. theyre gonna tell her everything.

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That's ok

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im scared.

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My mum called me a prude for not wanting to wear something that i found too revealing

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like i felt safe with someone but thn they pulled it back

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From what?

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ive been looking for that feeling ever since

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im scared im gonna be stuck in alaska wanting to kill myself. i have no family here. im alone.

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I feel uncomfortable with her now

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just safe enough to be vulnerable and let myself be unguarded

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i miss my mom. and my brothers and sisters. i miss the feeling of love hugging me.

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I understand that

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it feels like ive had a lifetime without that

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yeah.

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i really like myself when i feel safe

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Dw purple pain is never permanent

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And all of you

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I feel like i failed as a daughter to my mother

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it makes me sad that my mom sleeps with our stuff. i feel like shes slowly disappearing and im not there to remind her that i still love her

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eh maybe oneday i will feel it again

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Cyan you didn't

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red, youre valuable.

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