i want to feel safe

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I guess, more like my older siblings will. theyre gonna tell her everything.

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That's ok

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im scared.

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My mum called me a prude for not wanting to wear something that i found too revealing

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like i felt safe with someone but thn they pulled it back

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From what?

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ive been looking for that feeling ever since

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im scared im gonna be stuck in alaska wanting to kill myself. i have no family here. im alone.

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I feel uncomfortable with her now

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just safe enough to be vulnerable and let myself be unguarded

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i miss my mom. and my brothers and sisters. i miss the feeling of love hugging me.

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I understand that

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it feels like ive had a lifetime without that

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yeah.

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i really like myself when i feel safe

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Dw purple pain is never permanent

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And all of you

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I feel like i failed as a daughter to my mother

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it makes me sad that my mom sleeps with our stuff. i feel like shes slowly disappearing and im not there to remind her that i still love her

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eh maybe oneday i will feel it again

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Cyan you didn't

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red, youre valuable.

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to who ?

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She called me a prude for not wanting to wear a dress that i felt was revealing

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to me sure

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Maybe you can still do that for her purple

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She has been picking at all my flaws, physically, emotionally, socially, academically

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otherwise i'm alone and i have to be guarded there is nowhere to let my guard down

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Then thatsher fault Cyan

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i just wish i could look her in the eyes. i wish i had the strength to hug her.

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its whatevs maybe next life i'll get a better pick in the whole incarnation lottery thing

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I feel alone

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i just need to get my sister out. i need to i need to.

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Why u can't?

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I feel like i cant trust anyone

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its complicated. court, the time, the flights.

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I understand its not easy to be apart from ur best friend

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Oh i see sorry

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yeah.

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