im no expert in mental issues so i cant say what it means

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but the best thing for you to do rn is to find someone who can help

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it could be anyone

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it doesnt even matter if you have to go to a random stranger

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But is it my fault? I was told not to cry as a kid. But they are saying my heart is so bad now that i entered teenage

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bcz letting it inside

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will backlash at you hard when you least expect it

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listen red

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nothing is wrong with you

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people only say what they see

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its never your fault

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its not your fault

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Yall call me eclipse cause im color blind lmao

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and i will keep saying it over and over

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it never was

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even when you know it, sometimes you need to be told again

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that it wasnt your fault

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Thanks yellow if it was for me, yes thank you sm

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i remember crying when i heard a reel that kept saying its not my fault

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bcz i needed to hear it so badly

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and so i pass it to you coral

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But, is it really okay to feel and have these thoughts at such young age...

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and i love you

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and im proud of you

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what kind of thoughts?

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to kill people?

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this is smth i hate about myself but i unintentionally enjoy breaking people down mentally

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Dark thoughts they say. Such as thinking my fam is toxic w me and stuff

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its this part of me i hide deep inside

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those are not dark thoughts

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and i actually snapped. twicw

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They said it is...

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thinking your fam is toxic is never bad thoughts

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you could think whatever you want about them

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I know nothing about life and world since they kept me in 24/7

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i mean mine is a mix

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that alone indicates a toxic environment

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dw coral ik families like yours

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once you turn 18 and stuff they will either stop caring or make things worse

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by which point you should get out

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