50 weeks, even

43591 - 

i feel like leaving everything up to fate is really the worst thing you can do

43598 - 

id be lucky to be able to last another month

43591 - 

as someone who's thrown away their teenage years with that mindset, it really affects you later

43598 - 

maybe i should just do some half and half russian roulette

43591 - 

lmfao

43591 - 

Am I oblivious. Everyone around us says my best friend is in love with me. Why can i not see it

43601 - 

i know it's not something where you just wake up and feel better

43598 - 

if fate decides i live, i try again the next day

43591 - 

and so on and so forth

43591 - 

until fate decides that i live no more

43591 - 

try looking for a small reason thar makes you glad you're here every dat

43598 - 

hi

42982 - 

ive been trying that for years now

43591 - 

im unable to come up with anything

43591 - 

it sounds so small but it can do its thing

43598 - 

hi purple

43598 - 

my family is on the brink of disowning me, my friends have all left, the one person that cared for me has turned to the dark side

43591 - 

is x red here?

42982 - 

you said there was one person you're unsure about?

43598 - 

yeah, and theyre... a questionable last hope

43591 - 

because i think they might be getting tired of me too

43591 - 

just like everyone else did

43591 - 

try holding on to that, and try to make the best out of it

43598 - 

companionship is one of the most important things one can have, and everyone deserves it

43598 - 

so if they dont understand it they dont really deserve to be close to you either way

43598 - 

they live like literally a thousand miles away, or 1600km in my units lmao

43591 - 

across the continent?

43598 - 

halfway across the continent, width-wise

43591 - 

for reference, im canadian

43591 - 

hiiii-kenz

42557 - 

i live in central canada while they live on the west coast

43591 - 

is alexa here?

42557 - 

that's far but it doesn't mean anything, if you guys work on the relationship itself it can still help you out

43598 - 

its a road that both of you need to cross, but it's something that can really help out

43598 - 

i try, but its really hard to only be able to contact them when they have nothing else to do

43591 - 

yeah, i feel you, im in a very similar situation

43598 - 

they dont just come online when they have stuff they have to do on their mind iykwim

43591 - 

pretty much only ever available when theyre bored of things in the real world

43591 - 

and need a break

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