lately mu intrusive thoughts have been getting worse

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but like before they were the usuall shit like just disturbing images and such

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and my friend saw the blades i took out of my pencil sharpener and razor yesterday and she was asking a lot of questions like 'did you use ittt how many times" and i made me SUPER anxious

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ohhhh noooo what are you thinking now?

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Made me feek shir but thats besides the point

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awww

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I feel so bad for both of you, you are both gorgeous and idk you but ik you're gorgeous and rly nice!

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But now i just cant stop thinking that my friends hate me and that i am an embarrassment and ik that doesnr make sense but i just cant stop thinkimg it

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i can be a really shitty person sometimes

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its like i spiral

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I just feel like a disappointment

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everyone js so much better than i am at anything

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i am an embarrassment to myself i think

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yellow, I felt the same before but I thought that I had given my friends the chance to leave me so they axctually like me...and cyan, you are not a shitty person at all!

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omg I feel ya yellow

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i wish my brain would shut up so i didnt have to relive the stupid embarrassing shit ive said 24/7

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i wish my brain would shut up

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yeah, omg I remember that thing I did in like 2nd grade and I promise I literally had to change schools for it

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I was so dumb

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yeah sometimes (for some always) we all just want that

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Sometimes im worried that im just lying to mysled snd making myself think shit ik doesnr make sense

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for like attention or smth

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it does make sense!

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omg ikrrr

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that whatever im feeling isnr real and just me faking it

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Like imposter syndrome with intrusive thoughts

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if you feel like this I'm sure you're not faking it

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what's imposter syndrome? sry I'm dumb

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Wait gimme tow seconds

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oke

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it' fine I have.....until 2 am

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lol

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And when i relate that to my thoughts i mean like

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hello everyone, its been a while - sophie

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is anybody around? - sophie

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hiiii

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I am

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hihi hello : ) - sophie

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hihi

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how are you?

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