honestly? i belive that you believe that, but no, i think most peoples "purpose or meaning" are flimsy and a way to cope with they have live in suffering or die, which also scares them.

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i havent felt real for years.

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5 whole years.

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almost, what, six now?

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sacred to live. scared to die. confused apes, assinging the meaning of their life to their favorite tv show

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when does it all stop?

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wheres the relief?

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ive been asking this for years

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i dont ever feel good

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everyday is a repeat of the last

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im so desperate for anything to change

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that i wish for family members to die

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so desperate for change

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so desperate for pain

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just to feel something

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ask you average guy, the guy at the store, why are you alive? young? might say some experience they want. older? usually they cope with children. "i have to stay alive because they need me".

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justification? relief?

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all my life

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ive only wanted to feel

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justified

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shes made me to believe that my problems dont matter.

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that hers are worse.

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what mother does that?

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it hurts knowing youll never change

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they assinged reasons, purpose, to prevent themselves from exploring the side of life that is beating down on them. they wont though. that means acknowledging it.

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in the end ill always be your daughter and youll always be my mother

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your mother needs to die

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why go turning over rocks that you know will make you know more, but make you feel worse? easy choice for the stupid or frightened.

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i just wish she would have been there for me

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i was only four

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how could i understand such a thing by myself?

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i needed help. i just didnt realize it. too many emotions for someone so young.

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I did it again, I looped again, loop.loop.loop circle around and around Same thing, same problem, same no solution, its easy for me

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if she. had been there for me.

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if she had been my own fucking mother

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if she had stopped

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I need to die - sarah

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and thought about me

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maybe i wouldnt have turned out so fucking awful

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its funny to think about

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