i dont not want difficult, JUST Difficult to do, its difficult, im trying, no solution, there is a solution

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There is many solutions for me,i need to take them, my problem, i repeat hopes, what i must do, what i will do, and no action!

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No action! No action! No action! No movement! No movement! No forward! Only same!

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Stay in same spot, time moves forward, now Im back, now i dont move, further back

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you must look at the whole picture of life, reality, not choose to ignore the parts that make you uncomfortable or worse. if you choose to see all of it, the good and bad, that is the truth.

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Stay strong sweety you can do it - sarah

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no higher value than the idea of truth, all other things in life can be derived from whether something is true.

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I think all the things i must think, i dont think harshly, i think positive, i do healthy action mostly, not disregard , i eat , i sleep, i think, spend time with other, all i need more is to work out

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is that the solution!? Hahahaha

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Okay, easy, life , easy easy easy easy i said i would do it, then I did not , easy loop, easy, Lying is easy

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MOST MEN ARE RAPISTS........INCLUDING YOUR FATHERS

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what problem are you trying to solve, purple?

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Yellow I remembered having to suck off my teacher to get degree - sarah

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Problem, my avoidance loop, I avoid because it's difficult and because I feel not strongly about anything, I used to be motivated by fear, panic, interest, motivation

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OMG I AM SO SORRY ABOUT THAT CORAL

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CORAL PLEASE STEER CLEAR OF THE RAPIST GENDER

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Used to want to feel good, now its neutral, everything neutral, good is fine, bad is bad, but avoidance is easy, easy easy easy, comes easily, I need to hook myself to something, some goal or pattern,

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so you no longer haver those feelings you listed or they are still there but there is another issue?

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I must keep it, i must keep a pattern

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EVEN RESORT TO ELIMINATING THEM

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TORTURE THEM TO A PAINFUL DEATH

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I am not looking for advice or to explain myself, i am tired and not thinking clearly, this is only for my peace of mind

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EVERY MAN SHOULD SUFFER

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distraction comes easy, some way, ican make it difficult, i can make it not appealing, i can make my mind do nothing but what i must do, if just for a moment, anything is good, damn me

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lying is so easy, right now, ill say goodnight, but if ill sleep, i dont know. Ill say, ill wake in four hours, the truth i know will be different. Why? why lie? Even to myself

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its hard, but if youre serious about change, then do it. there are probably some distractions you can control, get rid of them, make it impossible.

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It seems as if peace of mind is more important to me

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Same fucking advice, just do it, I am trying every time, just need to try harder

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I just need to do it

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im sorry about the shitty "do it", but i did give some other adivce.

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Do what

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Having really bad anxiety

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You have a difficulty reading, i already said I wasnt looking for advice, Im not upset with you, this time is just moving fast for me. fast head

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do anything of value, Instead i loop myself to worthless habits or interest or hobby, no end goal to any of those action

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Part of my safety plan is to tell someone im going to hurt myself so im cheating the system and telling you guys

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ok, im sorry, i did miss that, i hope the best for you.

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I'm shaking and trying to calm down but my chest really hurts

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Have u ever tried watching dancing fruit?

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Yes, thanks, I wish you well too, have a good night. I really will sleep. I really will. of course something easy like that I can do. positive thoughts,firststep , hahahaha

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Go somewhere quiet and watch dancing fruit

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