i hear a lot about family, but im not sure ive seen one. not as they describe them. bit of an oxymoron, like an honest man. no one is honest. the world wont allow it.

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but i was sick, so i couldnt give it to her

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bit of an oxymoron, like an honest man shit that hits hard

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she never received that card.

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the only comfort i get is from when i was younger.

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even then. there was always such a strong. feeling of loneliness. lingering in the background. always.

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the wretched whore will live a life of pain and complain the whole way, woe is me, what did i ever do to deserve this?

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i was so alone growing.

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i had a loving family, i was happy. but so, so, goddamn alone.

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even the best of people are forced out of social pressure and often circumstance to decide whether the lie would be better for the(ir) world/

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shame manifest in bones, she knows what she did, but she can never look at herself because shes a COWARD

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and so am i

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i need to be better :(

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i really need to be better

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it used to be so bad that id hide and start shaking at the sound of someone knocking on our front door

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is the noble lie real? do some lies really make the world better off than the truth? i think so.

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i was always scared he'd find us again

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i think many people who need that purpose in their lives are lying to themselves, in a sort of self preservation.

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what is a lie but a truth in the making? :)

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that they would take me away again

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Hiiii - sarah

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bye-bye ventscape :3c

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"i decided i love fucking trains, they give my life meaning, so i wont blow my fucking brains out"

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even though its near impossible for him to find us, that feelinf still lingers.

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my minds still stuck in the state of, "what if he finds us? what if he finds us?"

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maybe ill always be this way

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if that little girl could see me now

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i dont think she'd recognize me.

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i dont think i recognize her anymore either.

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honestly? i belive that you believe that, but no, i think most peoples "purpose or meaning" are flimsy and a way to cope with they have live in suffering or die, which also scares them.

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i havent felt real for years.

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5 whole years.

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almost, what, six now?

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sacred to live. scared to die. confused apes, assinging the meaning of their life to their favorite tv show

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when does it all stop?

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wheres the relief?

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ive been asking this for years

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i dont ever feel good

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everyday is a repeat of the last

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im so desperate for anything to change

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