in the end ill always be your daughter and youll always be my mother

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your mother needs to die

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why go turning over rocks that you know will make you know more, but make you feel worse? easy choice for the stupid or frightened.

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i just wish she would have been there for me

39422 - 

i was only four

39422 - 

how could i understand such a thing by myself?

39422 - 

i needed help. i just didnt realize it. too many emotions for someone so young.

39422 - 

I did it again, I looped again, loop.loop.loop circle around and around Same thing, same problem, same no solution, its easy for me

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if she. had been there for me.

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if she had been my own fucking mother

39422 - 

if she had stopped

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I need to die - sarah

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and thought about me

39422 - 

maybe i wouldnt have turned out so fucking awful

39422 - 

its funny to think about

39422 - 

I dont know, its hard to understand my thought process, how i feel about good and bad things, i think its clearer for bad, er no, maybe for good, avoidance is my skill

39435 - 

how i could have turned out so differently

39422 - 

there is a whole world of ugly, dark, evil things that are just as important as the beautiful, light, good. choosing to simply ignore the bad does more harm than accepting it. theyre often the same--

157 - 

if he. didnt. live.

39422 - 

one rotten man.

39422 - 

avoidance loop. I have to write this, i wont remember, eas y to forget most things, because idistract myself constantly , busy head busy busy busy busy

39435 - 

things, but just happening to different things, people, events, in different ways.

157 - 

all i ever do is wish. all i ever do is hope. all i do is ever pray

39422 - 

i think I have a Clear head, but i think of it, its not, its scattered, easy for me to scatter, distraction comes easily, keep myself occupied, nothing difficult, i just need to do it

39435 - 

I get told just to do it, dont they understand ?I want to , no I thin k i want to , the truth is, I want easy easy easy easy

39435 - 

i wish i wish i wish. i hope i hope i hope. i pray i pray i pray.

39422 - 

i dont not want difficult, JUST Difficult to do, its difficult, im trying, no solution, there is a solution

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There is many solutions for me,i need to take them, my problem, i repeat hopes, what i must do, what i will do, and no action!

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No action! No action! No action! No movement! No movement! No forward! Only same!

39435 - 

Stay in same spot, time moves forward, now Im back, now i dont move, further back

39435 - 

you must look at the whole picture of life, reality, not choose to ignore the parts that make you uncomfortable or worse. if you choose to see all of it, the good and bad, that is the truth.

157 - 

Stay strong sweety you can do it - sarah

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no higher value than the idea of truth, all other things in life can be derived from whether something is true.

157 - 

I think all the things i must think, i dont think harshly, i think positive, i do healthy action mostly, not disregard , i eat , i sleep, i think, spend time with other, all i need more is to work out

39435 - 

is that the solution!? Hahahaha

39435 - 

Okay, easy, life , easy easy easy easy i said i would do it, then I did not , easy loop, easy, Lying is easy

39435 - 

MOST MEN ARE RAPISTS........INCLUDING YOUR FATHERS

39437 - 

what problem are you trying to solve, purple?

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Yellow I remembered having to suck off my teacher to get degree - sarah

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Problem, my avoidance loop, I avoid because it's difficult and because I feel not strongly about anything, I used to be motivated by fear, panic, interest, motivation

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