i get that blue

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being abused by my mom made me disassociate a lot

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and well it stuck

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Im 17 its been 6 years

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Sad since 8, first time sh at 10, suicidal for a long time

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The cold steel is like a cold pillow

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I love guns

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Ghist here?

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and it affects my emotional connection to others, now i feel like if my whole family disappeared suddenly i would get over it

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My tag is ghost but idk ghist

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i think something is wrong with my brain

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Life never felt real

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Damn

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exactly

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it’s terrifying

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Literally everything i do indicated i have ocd

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If i cant make it into the military im killing myself

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like imagine you decide to move your finger at some point and then you end up getting assaulted that day

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I dont have anythibg to say i genuinely want to die im just staring at the screen

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i think i have ocd too, red

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and likely autism too

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Cyan, push through it

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my therapist told me about the ocd

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Dont give the voices power

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and my dad told me im likely autistic

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god im sorry

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I feel like some thoughts are a manget and they make me do stuff

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You are the one giving your thoughts power red

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i really am an attention seeker since im literally listing all the weird traumatizing shit i can think of

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Im pushing with it..i cant get through, because it has been forever and it will always be forever. Theres no happy ending on the other side

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i don’t want to be a narcissist

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ihts

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Its okay green

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What do you think we are all here for green

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Thats what this site is for

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oh

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thank you guys

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you’re all really kind

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Light blue, please just hang on, talk to a trusted friend and distract yourself

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I have nobody

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