im taking lots of medicine now things should be good

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i need to be honest with my therapist

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but everytime i tell her something about how im feeling she tells me how harsh i am on myself

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how sad it is

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its just hard to hear that then go back home for it to be reinforced

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its just hardwired into me to take everything as criticism

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dad was a junkie drop out i can never be like him

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i am a possession in my house.

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i have no rights here.

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but i already am though

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im barely graduating next term

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them providing the bare minimum state that they give me too much

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no plans for after because im having this obvious fucking episode

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i want to get out

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helplines are useless

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this is a rumination episode

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they believe im overexaggerating my feelings

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i just cant stop really

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it really ruins me

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i have to hide my phone from my father bc he doesnt let me have one

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im covered in sores and bandaids my feet and fingers are always pale and purple

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idk how much longer i can take of this

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whats up party people-ketchup

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havent weighed myself because my mum got rid of our scale

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but i feel too skinny like im dying

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i'll be free soon.

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like im losing weight because i have cancer and i cant know because i havent weighed myself

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lol

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send me to the looney bin am i right

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my dad actually used to threaten to send me to one when he was hurting me

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i was a weak kid because i was sick a lot and everything felt useless

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everything fucking hurts bro

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this is all because i had covid like a month ago btw and im still getting better

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actually two months

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it was ok i got over it then i just slowly stopped eating

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and i was diagnosed with iron deficiency again

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so everything is wrong

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its a big circle

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before I really delve into venting no

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i can only eat peanut butter sandwiches and baby cucumbers and rice

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