She's 57

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i went to the gym for the first time today

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and then my elder sister was like " okay okay geez 🤨

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At this point I'm genuinely wonder

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it felt so good after i completed my workout

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What am i actually supposed to do?

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it felt like my depression just disappeared

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but the weight hit me again, like a truck

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i'm scared

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I try to ask for an answer to my elder sister

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of getting better

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But she avoid me

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i'm scared of being happy

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i have been stuck in my hole for too long

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What the hell am i actually supposed to do?

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and i started getting cozy

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it feels like no one will pay any attention to you once you're better?

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Why am i wrong

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exactly, red

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where am i wrong ?

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everyone is pushing me to get better

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how about that things will get bad again and you're scared of feeling sad again?

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but i'm so scared

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I work tirelessly for family

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i'm not scared of feeling sad

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I'm a housewife for my family

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And my mom is clean freak to top it off

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if i get better, responsibilities weigh down my shoulders

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real ive felt that

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feeling it right now

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im so tired

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Why can't my sister give me an answer?

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im so fucking tired red

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im trying to escape it lol cause t has to be done it just has to

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im done

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If I am wrong?

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i tried to commit yesterday

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but im all bark no bite

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you gotta hold off you've come so far

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im lazy

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