and then my mom fed me fish with rice so im js not gonna eat the rest of the day😛😛😛😛

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oh i also had bites of chia pudding from my sister

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and mangoes

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It hurts so bad

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yay blue try not to feel guilty abt what you eat trust me i know its easir said then done ik first hand

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oh to eat without feeling guilt i wishh

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its easy to say green omg every little bite and then im stressing over it the entire day

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ify blue

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you know purple i lost many relatives also ik how you feel

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mhhm

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I had a dream once when i was young

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snd ghe thing is its so emotionally difficult to be bloated rn im js gonna have a medicine to shit tdy😛😛😛 LMAO

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i often feel like i don't deserve to eat because ive done so many bad things

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I remember it very clearly

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red trust me its better to eat than not to eat

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im a failure fr

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It was a nightmare

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Idk if it was really SA or was i just uncomfy-

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It was a dream about my mom

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In that dream something bad happened to her

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well blue and everyone i am in recovery of anorexia and bulimia what reallly reality checked me was being sent to a mental asylum for a year i was strapped to a bed and they had to inject me with drug

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so i wouldnt die of a panic attack

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But i was able to wake up from it

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oh im so sorry green

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And my mom was there, comforting me that it won't happen, bc it was only a dream

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im only saying this so you know that feeling guilty over food is difficult i know but you can recover

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I was convinced, bc my mom assured me

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But why did that dream turn into reality?

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It was the only thing i feared the most

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i had this calorie-counting thing i think 3 or 2 years ago it wasnt bad i was eating good and okay and lost weight but afterwards i felt so ugh it just made me feel guilty for eating properly whenidid

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i am starting now at 16 to love myself i was sent to the asylum when i was 12 to 13 hen released

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I want to die right now

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awww im so glad you recoveredd

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oh purple <3

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well i relapsed last year

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I really can't go on

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so im trying to recover this month ...

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but its should get better i hope

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No matter how much i think of it, I don't have the strength nor courage to continue

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yess wishing the best for u

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