"give me all your lsd so i can feel my mind unweave again" drug addiction

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Ah.

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"bones bones bones, i can see my bones" as well as "a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips" starvation/eating disorders

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he liked it for one specific reason

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Checks out.

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i liked it for all of it

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Did he have an eating disorder?

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i wish i'd liked it back when we were close, it's one of those things we would have spent hours talking aobut

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no, he struggled with emotions

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ie, vulnerability

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Emotions can also be about intrapersona interpretation

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he struggled to be vulnerable with me. it took him months to say he loved me

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*interpersonal

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Maybe he loved you in his own way?

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i never pressured him. he didnt need to say it. but he eventually said it

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I see

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i wish i still meant that much to him

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Im sorry to hear

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ive got a plushie on my bed that i bought just for him, its his favourite colour

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its been my pillow ever since i bought it, like two months after we met

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Which color is that?

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kinda the colour of your text

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Blue?

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Hm.

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i actually kinda thought you were him at the start of this just because of the colour lol

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I have never met him before. Don't know what to say

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lmao i know

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he uses perfect grammar like you do

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the pressure is so heavy and I am really having a hard time opening up to someone. and the only person pressuring me is myself

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he didn't used to

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idk it changed one day i dunno why

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I wouldn't say my grammar is perfect, per se but interesting

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wish he'd come back

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let it once be me.

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Take it easy cyan. Do what you need to when you need to

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last time we talked on the phone he said he still loved me, and i told him not to talk like that

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i hate it when we're splitting up and he tells me he loves me

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I often wish i was more emotional. Then i look at my parents and that wish dissipates

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i wonder if i'm still viginaire to you /naim

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or ascii, maybe

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