a person like me isnt worthy of respect or love, i do stupid shit and say stupid shit all the time its probably why i cant keep friends

93769 - 

well, it wasnt on accident lol my day was shit but thats not a reason to take it out on him

93769 - 

Thats true

94366 - 

not even days, my weeks have been complete fucking shit

93769 - 

thats called displaced anger

94366 - 

but yknow, mental health is the reason and not an excuse

93769 - 

oh really? ive never heard of that term

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HI

94376 - 

then i mustve been dealing with it this entire time during mood swings

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ANYONE THERE

94376 - 

DELTARUNE YESTERDAY

94376 - 

i want to just give up

89725 - 

Yeah its when you lash out as somebody who has nothing to do with the reason youre angry

94366 - 

i destroy things and belongings that hold meaning to me and regret it after

93769 - 

ohh, ok

93769 - 

yeah, that makes sense

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i ended up kicking him and getting physical too

93769 - 

Oh-

94366 - 

yeah it sounds like youre dealing with a lot of negative emotions

94366 - 

of course he had to rub salt in the wound and said any time i got mad i resort to physical violence

93769 - 

honestly my only thought to that is that im just like my mom and dad

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they were physically violent when i was a kid all the time. i guess it really does rub off

93769 - 

i destroy all my relationships

89725 - 

I had a feeling

94366 - 

obviously i dont want to be like them. who the fuck wants to be like that

93769 - 

Youre not alone in that expereince, this happens to a lot of other people too unfortunately

94366 - 

so then i called him a fucking retard and had a panic attack like an idiot

93769 - 

who the fuck calls their friend a slur and then starts twitching tf out

93769 - 

im such a dumbass

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in my defense my last 6 weeks have been hell

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i cant deal with my erratic mood

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Yeah

94366 - 

therapist thinks its bipolar disorder and at this point i wouldnt even disagree with him

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but im 15 so diagnosis is hard as fuck

93769 - 

they thought it was autism at first but no im just fucked emotionally

93769 - 

so they only just diagnosed you?

94366 - 

if its this intense you’ll probably get one easier than other people under 18

89725 - 

so yeah, ive been suffering with this for the past several weeks. i only reached out for professional help yesterday regarding suicidal idealisation from school

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i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 16

89725 - 

thats fair but i feel like my diagnosis is taking way too long, ive been in therapy since 5th grade and these symptoms have been here since 4th grade

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