i want to die

94366 - 

i’ve started hallucinating recently and its torn my life apart

89725 - 

I hate that i have to leave my life so soon i hate it i wanted to do more

94366 - 

but i cant not like this

94366 - 

And thats all i have to say

94366 - 

i’m so paranoid that everyone i speak to is planning to try and kill me

89725 - 

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/8KbS4Eq-yL0?feature=share

94374 - 

Most people arent murderers thst just owuldnt make for a funcitonal society

94366 - 

so maybe that can comfort you

94366 - 

medicine could help you too

94366 - 

got sent home from the emergency department

93769 - 

i try to forget it because it’s a stupid thing to worry about but the fear is so overwhelming that i cant talk to someone face to face for more than 10 minutes without making an excuse to leave

89725 - 

need a high success rate and something thats not too bloody

93769 - 

was gonna go down with train or jumping off a building but im not exposing children or workers to graphic shit

93769 - 

i need to die

93769 - 

they let me go because i lied and said i wanted to go home 😝😝😝😝😝

93769 - 

bf came over for a little after but its a bandaid solution now that hes gone i dont see a point in continuing

93769 - 

i cant eat anything because i have this unshakeable feeling that someone’s poisoned everything i’m going to eat

89725 - 

honestly i have no idea how they let me go lol theyre careless asf i could go back and hang on hospital grounds and they would gaf until 3 hours later

93769 - 

waited all that fucking time for what, i couldnt even get admitted to the wadd

93769 - 

guess im not enough of a victim for them. or im not mentally ill enough

93769 - 

is that what they want to see from me? should i have to be 3 steps away from deaths door?

93769 - 

train station is 5 minutes away from my apartment i desperately need a way to die

93769 - 

Whatre your reasons green?

94366 - 

they gave me meds and said go home and fuck it

93769 - 

reasons for what?

93769 - 

why do you want to die

94366 - 

i feel like i need to kill myself before anyone else can

89725 - 

if i were to answer that question, ive been wanting to die since i was 5. im 15 now. theres so much happening, i cant even describe

93769 - 

ngopi-ngopi duluan pak anwar ibrahim rahmatan lil al hensemi ya

94374 - 

Thats really young

94366 - 

I just wish i could disappear and start afresh somewhere else. I'm hating my graduate degree

94375 - 

school work, arguments with friends, impulsive spending and stupid decisions, mood swings and constant suicidal idealisation. im really sick of dealing with this. on the grand scheme of things, it

93769 - 

doesnt seem like a lot but when it builds up over the span of 10 years it gets fucking tiring

93769 - 

im only hanging on for my boyfriend but that will to live isnt any much stronger

93769 - 

thermal night scope

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THERMAL NIGHT SCOPE

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LONG RANGE

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I see

94366 - 

i called my friend a retard today on accident and now i feel lile i shouldnt have to live ever again

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