you shouldnt be afraid to apologise, just prepare for your friend to be hesitant to accept it

89725 - 

Sounds like a good coping mechanism

94366 - 

Yeah i agree with blue

94366 - 

yeah that makes sense. i wouldnt forgive me in a heartbeat anyways

93769 - 

even worse because its another friends birthday tomorrow

93769 - 

and the friend i got into a fight with is there

93769 - 

i really wanna go but idk how its gonna work

93769 - 

You appreciate your friend right? Even though you called them a name this time, in general you’re fond of them, right?

94366 - 

i think ill just take my meds tmrw morning and see how i end up feeling

93769 - 

yeah, hes a good guy deep down. pretty irrational and immature but hes reliable when things get tough

93769 - 

i just hate approaching people after bad situations like this

93769 - 

most of the time i get called crazy or neurotic

93769 - 

theyre not wrong but i wish it wasnt like this

93769 - 

Well maybe it would help to highlight his good traits and explain that you know you got issues so you cant guarantee perfect behavior but youre working on it

94366 - 

which is why im so adamant on the idea of suicide. i dont deserve to live

93769 - 

i just hate communicating with oeople after bad situations

93769 - 

ive been thinking about suicide for the past 6 weeks anyways

93769 - 

i think what really triggered it is that before the 6 weeks i blew $400 dollars in a day on random bullshit i didnt even need

93769 - 

I think its worse to just let things remain unsolved though

94366 - 

i wouldnt say its the only reason but one of the factors contributing

93769 - 

Damn that really is textbook bipolar disorder right there

94366 - 

😭yeah i had a feeling

93769 - 

THERMAL NIGHT SCOPE BINOCULAR OR ORDINARY BINOCULAR?

94374 - 

i feel like i could have diagnosed you at this point lol

94366 - 

its not the first time as well

93769 - 

haha i wish it were that easy but theres so many other factors

93769 - 

yeah

94366 - 

if it helps ive had anorexia and a self harm addiction in the past, anxiety and depression too but those are the usual

93769 - 

idk what its looking like for my therapists on the diagnosis side of things

93769 - 

so its really adding to my stress

93769 - 

i wouldnt even call it stress at this point because it feels so much worse internally

93769 - 

maybe i just dont breakdown enough or shout and scteam enough for them to take me serious

93769 - 

Hii -🦊

94377 - 

I think I know what you mean

94366 - 

do i have to record myself breaking things and yelling and bejng destructive

93769 - 

How are yall? -🦊

94377 - 

oof haha

94366 - 

it feels like nobody takes me seriously lol

93769 - 

hhh yeah thats rough

94366 - 

I had anger issues at one point in my life but i got over em apparently

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