Whether im leaving or not

I should get changed

One moment im bad enough the next im just pathetic

I contradict myself

I dont even see myself as bad enough

Okay

I feel the symptoms

Nothing particular im just scared

Im scared

Ah ok

Like where u r

Ye

Im scared ill get ppl called on me

Do the hotlines track tou

What if i get there and they say im not bad enough anyway

Im just anxious

He might

If i tell my dad i dont wanna be alive rn and he should take me to hospital do you think hed do it

Or when i seek help nothing happens so i started to believe it never works

Its hard when all ive been told me whole life is to ignore it

Ik

Idk why im alive

I had a sucky reaction to my first therapy session so they probably think im mental

I dont trust it'll help at all

Im getting treated by em

Anyone hesrd of camhs

Hi green

I feel like somone is there and i just know they are

Im so paranoid at random intervals

I cant bear this house

Yeah i do

Friends is a reason

Most are dead or not close

No not really

Well kinda complicated

I have no friends

I am technically getting help

School literally called and said they cant handle me lol

Ive been off school for months due to severe anxiety and panic attacks

My parents i mean