I fear that may be the cas efor me too

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I dont want that

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I try so goddamn hadd

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But i still end up the smae

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i get it but i don't blame you it is not your fault it just it gets hard sometimes and not everyone deals with it all perfectly

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Thank you

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Idk what to say

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Youre nice. I wish i vould believe nice things

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But they end up feeling empty. I feel empty

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Like theres a quota of poeple who deserve nice things qnd im not one of them

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Because life has only proved it again and again no matter how hard i try no matter how much i hoep

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Im being a downer

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But i cant help it rn

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Ive been in a negative space so much

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Idk how to be positive

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I cant believe in anything

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I used to be religious.ive lost my faith

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I don't find any point in anything

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Ive been clean from self harming for a while but

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Idk how much ime for

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Ir is stupid i knwo

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sorry about that i hope you can find someone to talk to irl and someone who will be good to you even if you don't believe you deserve good things you don't deserve suffering either

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I have friends but i cantt alk to them about thsi stuff they would judge

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Or feel bad.

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I tried talkimg to one friend and they said i should talk to ai about my problems

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That made me so mad.

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But it was probably deserved

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Noone wants to hear about rhis stuff

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I dont either

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sorry i hope this doesn't make you mad but have you tried it out?

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But i have to live with it

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Tried what out

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venting to ai

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Yes i have. It has helped a little

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Idk how to feel about it

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Thing is im venting rn and i vented earlier but my situation stays the same

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I wisb my situation was in my hands

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But even if it was id probably be too much of a coward

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Like i am rn

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I know im being self deprecating

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