No job, in debt and negative balance in bank account, passed highschool with 1.8 gpa, joined military and failed that, can't get a job and suffer from several mental illnesses

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im sure theyd be sad if u were gone

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living with grandparents who manipulate me, I'm 21 btw

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nah their lives would be sm better

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i dont think so

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im js a dark person who makes everybodys lives darker

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All these people who have at least one friend, I have no friends and no one to live for

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i do tho

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u dont have to feel that way

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well red now i have 5 friends

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its the truth tho

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Only thing that actually keeps me here is my survival instincts that are wired in all humans, we all naturally dont want to die

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its definitely worth trying to find a good place, with good people who will make you feel worthy

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they try their bst to do so but i just feel this way for some reason

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i get it. its hard to be happy

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Don't care if this is tmi but my room is just trashed, piss bottles everywhere and garbage and clothes everywhere

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wsg

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I dont take care of myself anymore, I dont even brush my teeth or shower unless I have to go somewhere

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my mom gave me an ED at 8 years old with a single mistake and traumatized me for the rest of my life -root

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red its ok we all have those moments

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My dad works in a violent work field and so when i go through very traumatic experiences they always pale in comparison to his and so whenever i'm hurting i feel like i'm lesser than him

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i became suicidal at 8 years old -root

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ur problems are just as big as anyone elses problems

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The thing is though that it isn't okay, I'm embarassed and ashamed of myself and I wish my brain was wired like most peoples and that I can function like the majority

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who wants to piss for daddy?

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i already planned an attempt for tn

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what the actual fuck cyan -root

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daddy wants to drink all of it

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don't do it ik its tempting but i care about you -root

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im blocking cyan rq -root

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yall need to stop getting depressed

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and start peeing for daddy

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yellow bro dont take ur life, people care about you

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Wish it were that easy cyan

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if they did they wouldve showed it coral

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well i care about you -root

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ty root

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ik its ahrd to believe that somebody who doesnt even know ur name cares about you but i do -root

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ofc man -root

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i became suicidal at 8 years old -root

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