Thats guy literally used to make bloody marks on me

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drunk on my damn birthday, im pretty sure he got mad at me over some stupid citizenship card conflict he dealt with my mother. fuckin retards, do your own thing

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they're saying we'll move in march

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ive been waiting ages

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but the problem was I was the older one so no matter what happens I was at blame......I was barely 6 or 7 at that time

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im unhappy with the moving. im seriously mad about the fact they didnt do it along time ago

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So yeah I grew up hating him

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they started talking about moving since i turned 13. the arguments, physical violence, everything, all leading up to the point of getting a new house

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i will never truly be me

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cause before I was loved or maybe that too was my illusion

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i gotta go get my credentials sorted out, my phone number needs to be changed, lots of shit i have to adjust to

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im sick of it

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and then i gotta move as well

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my parents are slow-paced fucking losers, so im doomed. im also 14 so i have a lack of control over lots of things in life

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as time went by my parents did the same thing with him. He also grew up to be mentally damaged as cause I have already went throught that so I know what he suffers from

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turning 15 in 3 months, feel like ive had my times i couldve spent adventuring and sharing photos and stuff-- all wasted away, due to shitty parenting

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i want karoo - Athena

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im tired of being the emotional pillar for everyone (including my mom) i wish i had someone to depend on without feeling like a burden

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also i finished the first poem - athena

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i hate her, she grew up in a grandiose, large room, she was always arguing with my parents to get the front seat in the car, she has INHERITED NARCISSISM.

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I use that against him. Also I study psychology(as a hobbie as the yuoung me was desperate to find out whats wrong with my mind) I really know why he react in certain ways

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when i was younger i always abided to the rules, i dont have a criminal record at all now, nothing, and this is what i get. Love it

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Its fun using this against him.

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i also was the only kid in the family not screaming at my parents to allow me to be in the front seat to be perceived as "superior". and look how things change.

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i have environmentally gained narcissism i wasnt born like it

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fucking hate my family

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all for a survival mechanism

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He also have low self estemee. My parents neglected him for a period of time as I started scoring good marks so he is just obsessed with trying to make my life hell to pull me down.

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he gets pleasure out of it

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reckon i have ASPD. been really thinking of antisocial shit to do.

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but not overt. because i have no criminal record nor history of impulsivity in public. only at home.

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So I just use his mental illness against him to keep him quiet

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I tell him why he react in certain way

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all these damn losers beat the shit out of me when i was younger because they had a lack of impulse control

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it reminds me of my dad as well. Sad AF

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it pains him and he don't mess with me.

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its fucked up but it works.

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i swear to fucking god its sad to know that my parents are just like the people who bullied me in school

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lack of impulse control, irritability

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sick of it

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