Just let me die

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I'm so miserable

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It sucks seeing all of your enemies prosper while you fail

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I sometimes tell myself that I see God laughing at me in my mind's eye

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I know God doesn't take pleasure in (most) human suffering

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But still, my emotional brain is hijacking my logical brain

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The shame of homelessness is the worst part

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Not even the lack of money, it's the embarassment of being caught living in a church by other members

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WHo have wives, kids, families, houses

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They all think I'm a loser

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Easily the most painful part

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Why won't God just let me die

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FUck off

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I'd rather die than live through the shame

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And God won't give to to me despite me asking

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It's like he hates me

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One day, I'll work up the courage to kill myself

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This has gone on too long

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No car, how will I even get to work? My job is 44 miles away

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