since i think u guys wld understand can i admit smt - zach

shitttt thats gay of me to be here but wtv u guys r chill - zach

wait back up how many of yall are girls here - zach

damn punk u rly goin thru it the fuckk - zach

idk if u a female or a male PUNK but i know how u feel the shit models say to eachothers was just out of hand - zach

oh is it like that gender shit. yeah seems like it must suck - zach

punk whats dysphorea - zach

gives me deja vu i used to use those religiously ha - zach

yh those work - zach

yeah neosporin and letting it dry is simple but good - zach

they dont sell that shit in japan pisses me off - zach

yo punk u use? - zach

yeah verlaine ur fucked but my best advice is neosporin its what i use for any track marks that i get. works to a degree - zach

thing is i dont speak japanese well yet so i got no choice but to be doing modelling here - zach

thats cool as shit PUNK - zach

shit im a devoted atheist and money gotta be some remote dream for me - zach

yeah man. what do u do PUNK do u work? - zach

damn ur cousin strong for that tho - zach

the only thing motivating me to stop is so i can go back to my agency. - zach

yo PUNK u got any advice for me? the fuck do i do man - zach

hey that reminds me when i almost got a girl pregnant once. she leg locked me and i was high off my mind bro shit was scary - zach

agencies wont take me when im in this state. seriously bro if u saw me u wld understand im far deep in it - zach

man its addiction not an aesthetic i just wanna recover. i used to be jacked too dude but i lost so much of it - zach

wym PUNK - zach

nah man i used to be exactly who i wanted to be but i just got so fucking lost. agency dropped me wont take me back, my hairs all long and fucked i look tired all the time im shaking 24/7 - zach

model agency PUNK. was so hyped on it i moved to japan for it, got real into it actually. not anymore - zach

fuck are u talkin about Cart - zach

ill never forget the email my fucking agency gave me. they said i had lost myself, no longer fit their expectations, needed to stop drugs before being considered as eligible to be back in the industry - zach

appreciate it dude - zach

i was a model once. man people actually used to want me in their lives. - zach

alr Jord - zach

i dont recognize myself dude - zach

its all shit i used to like what i saw in the mirror i was so confident - zach

u know i moved to japan, for modelling opportunities. but my drug problem got so bad my agency let me go. now im on the verge of losing my apartment here - zach

what about drugs dude im tryna stop i want my life back - zach

alr ill look into it thanks man - zach

my whole life is absolutely fucked rn bro its all js gone shit - zach

yeah? whats ur advice jord - zach

um i started w weed when i was 15 but now like coke or heroin really - zach

can anyone help? - zach