im just stuck in an existence i dont even want and cant escape xd

passive suicide man i cant bring myself to just go and do it xd

she told me she would kill me then kill herself since i was very young xd

the night my mother committed suicide i wish she just stabbed me to death with a knife like she told me she would xd

its middle of the night so quiet xd

all i have to do it just do it fr xd

im alone here xd

i mean come on man i can kill myself in this empty house and no one would know or look for days maybe weeks xd

nah committing suicide is prolly the only way out xd

people are exhausting xd

people never fail to disappoint me because no motherfucker even comes close to the lowest bar xd

and im fucking done xd

its so exhausting when my entire life is filled with fucked up people and me hoping maybe things would be diff and people would be better to the point of my soul dying xd

shitty people are all there is and thats just so sad but thats all there is xd

just bullshit over bullshit xd

i dont think i met anyone that is real at all xd

toxic shit growing up toxic shit online toxic shit irl its so exhausting xd

im so tired of the toxic shit in here xd

awh play the victim card xd

politely fuck off bro xd

its like my mind is stranded somewhere just so empty with nothing in siight xd

every night its been crossing my mind xd

2:18am the entire house is in the dark neighborhood is quiet a good time to kill myself xd

and each night im alone in this house i be thinking maybe i should just kill myself so i wont have to deal with shit im not responsible for xd

i cant have a fucked up sleep schedule xd

i stay up until 6am in the morning then sleep around 12pm xd

i dont like what happened with my sleep schedule xd

wild xd