he was always the first to notice if anythings off with me

he stooped my sh habits yk

he is the reson i dont feel numb anymore i can cry to my feelings now i m happy that i can finally feel what i actually feel yk

but he is the reason i m trying to change myself for better

i m talking about my partner here it makes him look bad

and you cant help someone who doesnt want to help themselves

but yk every avoident doesnt want to heal them thats the biggest issue!

cuz we r confused people

and i think any secure person will become anxious if they r withh an avoident person

yeah people make a big deal out of anxious people when all they need is just a lil reasuurance

everyone does

thats not wrong

you just needed a lil reasuurance

its okay n

i want to be secure not someone who is scared to express their opinions anymore

youre trying your best

i can see

youre not

thats why i saif your partner sounds like me to some extent

yk

you made me cry too when you shared your stories

he has that tendendy but i can see him trying

like fuck this life

yk how some prople add slang to their every sentence as a habit ?

he doesnt call me names anymore like he is trying

nopes

i said to him you always do this u say youll change when i m angry that you will change but youll continue the sme cycle

he wont do that ever again said sorry

and he told me if he ever calles me name again then to block him

so i finaaly sat beside him not the opposite to him

he told me to reasuure him a lil bit

i m dumb

but after i saw him cry i couldnt

he actually told me to give him time a year to change i said no he said 6 months i said no he said 1 month i said no it was after this thing he ralised tht i was breaking up with him

i asked him not to be like this

i went to the washroom wiped my tears and came back to see him even in more tears

i saw tears in his eyes

then he was realising i m breaking up with him so he statrted geting emotional

but the thing is i can never go so he said that

thats why i said that to him