I will, and I want to stop lying to my therapist, but everytime I see her I lie. I want to try but I just give up everytime I have the chance

Self harm is the only thing I was ever really praised for in life. I had 3k followers where I posted and talked about self harm and people actually talked to me.

Because sick is the only way I feel validated

Like I don't want to recover, it's like I want to stay sick

I don't know how to heal because everyone wants me to but I feel like I don't want it and I don't know why

I want to, and yes the FBI. It's investigating 764.

Yes I have, they talk to the FBI about what happened to me. But I don't tell them everything. I have been telling them I'm fine but I'm lying

No, I have no friends. All I have is my parents, but I don't go outside at all. I haven't had friends in 2 years

I'm not religious

I was looking for community, but instead I was met with people who count their victims as prizes and then they gain respect for hurting kids like me.