I want to kill the boys in my school i want to kill loterally everybody everything feels so fake its like im livinh in yhe matrix and the matrix is telling me to do yhis

And then i suffer in hell forever

Yeah you didnt believe in me now your going t ihell for suicide

I hate it here everything feels so fake my body my face my voice it feels like im hallucinating and im scared to die because i dont think there is a god but what if there is a god and then god is like

I thought maybe in summer vacation this thought would gl away and i would forget but i just want to shoot my school i just

I just want to die i just want to shoot everybody in my school and then just fucking shoot myself

i have been thinking about suicide for 9 years. I dont know what to do anymore and i dont believe in therapists