I love my son but i hate the body that grew him

driwb evertgig out

i feel like slamming my head over and over

i dotn do anything right

just because i saw her

I couldn’t leave my family behind and its not worth it i can’t believe i even had a flash of such an awful thought

i dont want to be this way

i hate how i suck at everything

i hate how my body looks

I compare myself to her and it makes me feel sick

I love my baby and husband i love my life but im fucking ugly and feel stupid and i just get flashes of bashing my head against a wall