okay thank you

i just feel bad for my girlfriend i dont tell her about this cause i dont want to burden her

i was like "you deserve this piece of shit" and then i did it and i then i was like "dude whyd you do that stupid youre not that sad"

well i feel like im faking the self harm part cause like i still didnt feel like i deserved it fully

and me being sad

like self harming and stuff and my trauma and stuff

yo

is anyone there

i dont know atp

no like im asking am i faking it

I HAVE AN ALTERNATIVE BEAUTIFUL GIRL I LOVE HER

also theodore ik its hard but you just have to be nice to yourself and just think fo yourself as a friend i mean would u want ur friend to do that

ty red

like i was over it while trying to get away

but like it hasnt been long since i ended things but i wasnt able to get away so thats why i feel weird abt it

yeah im over her

guys im like a stupid blob for this girl im actually so in love but i just broke up with my manipulative ex so like idk if its okay