i find that one boring

i wonder how is the adrenaline like when you almost take someone's life

but i wish i could have one person that i care about not be dishonest with me

i only came later i am not meant to know anything but i know all of it

or tell me what's really happening

so why would anybody be honest with me

i'm not the main one

but i'll never good enough answers because

i have too many questions to ask him

how many more times will he stay with the others until he forgets my love for him too

sorry! i forgot!

that he can't keep doing this to me

and when he comes i ask him what he was doing tell him we had plans

and i'm still going to sit and wait and hope i wasn't forgotten again

makes plans with me and goes off with one other

I don't get the same effort the others get

i miss when i didn't think i had to fight for crumbs

so he'd feel that strange sting when you believe you've been found out

only in passing

i'm seeking a way that i can mention it

but am i in the wrong for not leaving if nobody has any idea of how much i knew

i do know i'm just a side

and it then it wouldn't feel so weird

im not going to do anything about it but i wish he'd say it outright