byebyebyebeyebyebye

and not wake my mum up for reassurance

im gonna try and sleep

so now i just want to explode

u think google is bad but then you ask social media and everything is telling you its cancer

i started googling at 11

its already 1:30am fuck

but i also could just be mentally unwell

it could be cancer

ive been really bad for a while now so my eczema is bad and im losing hair

its one big circle of stress

and i have ocd

i only know im iron deficient

or idk like a problem with your medication if youre on any

but really it could be something wrong with your immune system that has nothing to do with cancer

yeah

you should go i think

i sweat when i wake up but i think its cause i sleep under 5 blankets

idk i dont trust myself

no i dont think so

its gotten so bad anytime i get an ache or pain i instantly think its cancer

bro i wanna shave my head just to see

its a bone right

is it that way for anyone else

but now ive been touching everywhere all over my head and im terrified because the part behind my ears is hard

i already went to the doctor and she checked the ones on my neck and they were swollen because i was sick

about my fucking lymph nodes

ive been ruminating for 2 hours

im driving myself crazy