Also it's okay cyan i still appreciate the sentiment <3

Im scared to be working with no light at the end of the tunnel

Im scared to go into college alone again

I cant talk to her cause i love her so much it'd ruin any chance at friendship i made

She's allowed not to be, its just brutal hearing it

She just wasn't happy

I know i can i know i will i just. I can't process this

She was all that mattered and i jusy dont know how to move forward

I cant do this she was my world

She meant so much to me i dont care that there were red flags i just

I lost my ONLY sense of community

She was the only fucking person to treat me like a woman

I want my partner back i hate thisssssss

My life is bad but its been normal lately and i feel so guilty for being suicidal

me too

I was in the psych ward for a while its just. Its so hard

Its so fucked up i hate it

If you don't have insurance it could ruin your whole life if you're hospitalized

Even if you did, living through the aftermath of an attempt is hell

I cant express how awful of an experience making an attempt is

I want somebody i love to kill me

I know i cant i know i wont i just. I wish someone could kill me

Fuck rverything i just want to die i hate this

I wanna die so bad but i know i cant

I just want emotional connections

I miss having a partner so bad

I just wanna cry i hate how alone i make myself

I miss my partner i miss having friends

Im so tired

Its really shitty though

They're just easy to anger very single minded and they loved to single me out and laugh at me 24/7

It wasn't worth the stress anymore

They were just bad for me

I think ive finally ended 6 years of friendship with 7-8 people all at once